in which I talk about a horrible addiction, but not the one you think

There's a whole collection of towels hanging over our shower curtain right now because my neighbor is using our shower because she's dying some costume pieces in her tub. It was really dark on my side of the curtain when I took a shower today, it was like showering in a play-fort or something.

I've spent all day watching minecraft videos. I don't own the game, so I watch someone else play it. I'm extremely boring. I watched two more complete game play-throughs yesterday by the same woman that did the Amnesia videos.

So last time I was out getting groceries I decided to give in and buy some milk. You may not know this about me, but there's something about milk that I find extremely wrong. I mean, I'll totally eat dairy products, but plain milk freaks me out. I got it because my acid indigestion has been so bad that I think I might be developing a hole in my throat. Since getting this milk, I've been like a kid with a tub of ice cream. I just can't get enough of it. I still find it gross, but I can't stop drinking it, even when my acid isn't bothering me. I'm so ashamed TT_TT

Yeah, the acid comes with the excessive drinking thing that I do. I remember an old friend of mine would mix his vodka with milk to help counteract the acid.

I'm almost positive I heard a gunshot this morning. I mean, I've heard plenty of fireworks and thought they were shots, but this did not sound like the fireworks. It also sounded like it was in the alley right behind my house.

I get this tight little knot in my chest every time I think about going out anywhere. It's mostly okay with familiar places, like the corner store, liquor store, and even the mall (for short periods of time), but the idea from being away from the house for any length of time is really scary. I mean, I've always been a homebody, but now... ugh, even just typing about it is freaking me out. Really no wonder I dropped out... again.

Have a smoke, chill out Cal. Go cuddle your aids panda.

On a totally different note, here, have a freaky video with an awesome song: 

I like the album version the song better, but that video is just so... weird. Which is funny for me to say considering I spent all last night watching Tool music videos with Kirsten. But they're kind on a different level.